Bargaining...

So I realized something the yesterday and this is how it came about....

I work nights so my sleep schedule is completely off! So instead of starting my Weight Watchers day after I wake up, I start and finish at midnight. So yesterday I woke up at 5:30 pm and Ryan and I went shopping for things to paint and decorate Nea's new room (she is moving into the bigger bedroom!). He had just eaten since he didn't get a lunch at work and I was STARVING! But I put it aside and we went see Iron Man 3 and decided to get dinner afterwards.

My stomach was growling so loud it kept interrupting the movie, but still I kept my composure and refused to eat. After the movie we went to Texas Roadhouse because I figured a grilled steak would be better than something fried. Well when the hostess was packing up our to go order, she asked if we wanted rolls to take home. Stupid question. OF COURSE WE WANT ROLLS!!!! And we got 2 orders to say the least.

When we got home, I was a good girl and ate my steak first with my corn and macaroni and cheese. I still had 3 points left! GO ME! But I really wanted those damn rolls and, go figure, they are 5 points each! What is a girl to do? I ate one roll and use my weekly points to cover that. But the fat girl inside wanted MORE! So I bargained. I told myself, "It is 11:30 pm. I will wait 30 minutes and eat another one and that way I won't use up more points for the day!" So I did. I ate that roll and it felt so good. Too good, in fact.

After sleeping 8 hours that day and having been suffering with a cold, I fell asleep at 12:30. Probably shouldn't have binged at dinner because it was an "I am full therefore I am tired" feeling. So this morning I woke up and I am not hungry. I drank a glass of water and decided to eat when I get hungry. But I am worried that if I wait too long, I will want a big meal later like last night.

Therefore, I have realized TWO things: I need to eat something light when I wake up or start feeling hungry, and I need to stop bargaining when I will eat dinner rolls. I mean really, after a six ounce steak and sides and a dinner roll, did I really need another roll? Probably not! And I didn't wait to fall asleep so that's another strike against me!

I knew this would be hard, but I didn't know dinner rolls would be the devil.

-Terese