Week 24

I know I skipped week 23. For a reason. I didn't lose any weight which depressed me a lot. I'm not sure of it is the gym and I am gaining muscle or I have been stress eating. Either way, I finally lost a little this past week. I now weight 226 lbs but it's still not fast enough.

The wedding is 3 months away and I need to fit into that dress!!! Stress overload at this point. Just pray that I can make it to at least 210 for the wedding! :)

-Terese

Week 22!!

Well I am now 226.8 lbs! That is a total of 38.2 lbs!

I bought my bridal shower dress which is gorgeous. I actually bought 2 online in different sizes because I could not try it on. Hopefully I can wear the smller one!

Still dying to put on my wedding dress but I am staying clear. I have so much to do and such little daylight to do it in. I haven't slept more than 6 hours in a very long time. I just want to sleep all day without having to wake up for something.

Anyways, I hoping the nocturnal shift gets more appealing now that my friend Bethany has started working with me!! I love the shift and the patients, I just hate the hours because I am not home with Ryan and Nea in the evening and I am always tired!! Grown-up problems........

I hope you all had a great weekend since I am writing this late. You guys keep me going!

-Terese

Weeks 20 and 21!!

Oh wow! Again I missed a week posting and updating you guys on my weight loss. It has been crazy and hectic in the Campbell-Thibodaux world between Nea's softball, work, wedding planning, and different events we made commitments to. But now I am wide awake on my night off and it is about time I brought you guys in on a few updates!

First off, my weight last week was 228.2 lbs which was a big moment because I am finally in the 220s! This week I am 227.8 lbs which is a grand total of 37.2 lbs of weight loss! Exciting!

We have been going to the gym regularly and have been doing sessions of Body Motion. A trainer sat with us and showed us how to use different weight machines and put the appropriate weight on each for us. Ryan and I both agree that we are actually excited to go to the gym now because these sessions are fun and we can really feel the burn! Ryan is losing weight really fast and I am a little jealous because mine has slowed down a bit. I admit I have had plenty of cheat days but you can't diet at weddings and parties! That's a mortal sin in my book!

Anyway, I have noticed that the fat pockets that sit right by the arm pit (ladies, I know you can relate) have gotten smaller and so have my arms. My arms and my gut are the biggest problems I have especially when it comes to my wedding dress. On that note, I find myself having to strap myself to a chair just so I don't go and put on my dress at least 3 times a week!

I sure do hope that I can stick to my diet these last few months. Baby showers, parties and the holidays just may be the death of me! But what I have learned about myself the most is that I have poor self control. That is something I need to work on, but I am confident I can get that under control!

Until next time!

-Terese

Week 19!

So it is about 4 months until my wedding and it is crunch time! My current weight is 229.8 lbs and I really have just stopped losing for the most part. We have been going to the gym so I am hoping that that will help out with the weightloss as well.

Like I told the trainer during our "free session", if I stay this weight that would be fine. I just want to tone up!!

Fingers crossed for better numbers next week!!

-Terese

Week 18!

Well it looks like I will have to start doing more in my weight loss because I have noticed the amount of weight I am losing is declining every week. My current weight is 230.2 lbs. I am still losing which is great but I don't care for how much I am losing compared to a few moths ago.

To fix this problem, and in order to get healthy, Ryan, Nea, and I have joined a gym! It is great because they have so many activities for Nea so she isn't just sitting in day care. I was hoping to start going today, but Ryan has Nea's temporary card so I will just go alone tomorrow.

I am mostly excited about how my wedding dress will look on me once I have toned up everything. Even if I look great only on my wedding day, I am okay with that. Those who have followed my blog since day one know that looking good is not what this journey is about. Everyone knows I want to lose the weight just so I can gain some back for nine months! :)

I hope everyone is having a great week and will have a great weekend. Sorry I have been so short on my last few posts. I have literally been posting from my phone in between doing things. God bless!

-Terese

Week 16 and 17

Sorry I have been MIA for a while. Every time I tried to log in, I would get kicked out. Now that I  am back, I can tell you I didn't not lose any weight the first week and now I am 231 lbs today. That first week was a really rough week to be a woman for me (if you catchy drift). But I have bounced back and I'm looking forward to the 220s!

I finally received my wedding dress and I am using that as my motivation. I did buy a smaller size after all! :)

Hope everyone has an amazing weekend!

-Terese

Week 14... Going great!

Well my weight this week is 232.6 lbs which is a total of 32.4 lbs. this is super exciting! I'm hoping I reach the 220s by next week! We shall see!

I bought my wedding dress Saturday and I am absolutely excited about losing more weight and looking amazing in my dress!!

I hope everyone had a great time going back to school whether it was you or your kids!

-Terese

Week 13!

Well the weight this week is 235.4lbs. That's a total of almost 30lbs. Ryan actually told me that I am looking smaller and smaller. That made me smile.

I want to ask everyone to send prayers my way. Just a lot of personal stuff going on and extra prayers and support will be greatly appreciated. I pray God has a plan for me and my little family and that it will all turn up.

Love you guys!

-Terese

Week 12!! A very special post!!

Well let me start off by saying I didn't lose any weight this week. This is the first week this has happened and I should be upset, but I am NOT! This is because I got ENGAGED!!! Ryan had a whole setup this past weekend and it was everything I could imagine! Needless to say, we celebrated with dining out a lot and I didn't want to limit myself!

We have decided to join a gym so we can lose weight together because our wedding date is scheduled for January 24, 2014. I think my biggest fear is not fitting into my dress on the wedding day since I am losing weight so quickly. And now that we are actively joining a gym, it will be coming off quicker.

All fears aside, I am beyond ecstatic to plan and go shopping for my wedding!! This also means that sometime next year I will be starting a new blog documenting my pregnancy!! Well, hopefully. I think Ryan will have some say on when he wants to have another baby! Lol

Well I know most have you have already congratulated us and we appreciate it very much! We love you all and we can't wait to share this journey with you guys!

-Terese

Week 11... A little piece of heaven! :)

Well I have finally hit my 10% goal!! I weigh 237.8lbs!!! This is so exciting that I went and bought steaks that I grilled and they turned out amazing!! My next 10% goal will be 214 lbs which I hope to accomplish by October. We shall see if I meet this goal!!

If you were wondering about the little piece of heaven, Ryan and I are taking a vacation this weekend and he has planned some amazing activities! I am beyond excited since it starts Friday. Also the fact that I have a week off of work doesn't hurt either!

In conclusion, I am 27.2 lbs lighter and I plan on having the time of my life this weekend, so I apologize for not losing much next week! :)

-Terese

Week 10... I'm getting thin!!

Well it's been a whole 10 weeks! And the road has been long and torturous! But I am proud to say that I now weigh 239.4 lbs!!!! Yes! I am in the 230s and less than a pound away from my 10% goal!!!

I honestly thought that having my wisdom tooth removed on Monday would have helped with my hunger, but it didn't. So I can say that I did this all on my own!

This weekend we have Nea's birthday party at our house so there will be plenty of food and goodies to be eaten. Because of this, I have decided to set a goal of not using all my points the next few days. Let's see if that is even possible for me considering Ryan came home with a chocolate pastry and I was about to fight him to the death for a taste. I didn't, though.

Anyway, I hope everyone has a great rest of the week and an amazing weekend!!!

-Terese

Week 9.. Lookin' mighty fine!

Well, well, well. Looks like the week has flown by! After 3 different parties this weekend, I was sure that my weight was going to skyrocket! I did do very well though and did not give into temptation. Well, I didn't over do it.

Well without further ado, my weight this week is 241.6lbs!!! YAY!!!

I started measuring myself as well, but I am going to keep that to myself until I reach my final goal! I am also in the process of finding a before picture since I didn't think about taking one. But I will say this, ALL of my clothes are way too big!!!

I am so excited to keep going on this journey and bringing everyone updates! Pray for me because all Weight Watchers is doing is taking away points as I continue to lose weight!

-Terese

Week 8... Very very busy...

Sorry I am late with this post. Working a 70 hour week and the 4th of July, Nea's birthday and Ryan's birthday really has made this week fly by fast! It also has made for a bad diet week. My weight this week was 244 lbs. I still lost 1 lb but I would have liked to see more. Hopefully next week will be better!

Well let me get back to work. Our Internet has gone down and all hell has broken loose!

-Terese

Oh dear what week is this? Seven?

So last week was a bad week! Witnessed 2 wrecks and stuff with work, so I may have been comforting myself with fudge and French toast. I weighed yesterday and it was 245 lbs but this morning it was 242.2 lbs. Have I actually lost that much? I don't know. It is quite possible since Ryan and I suffered from some type of stomach bug yesterday.

Anyway, it is 4th of July today and we have a big party to head to at my Aunt Ginger's in the boonies.  Pool, sun, and a lot of food! Because of the food, I am starting a new tradition! After the 4th resolutions! I think that New Year's resolutions should end at Easter, then Easter's end on July 4th, and the 4th end on Halloween, then thanksgiving, then Christmas, the New Years again! That way we never fail!!

In conclusion, I'm a fat girl at heart and I intend on eating that s'more brownie I made last night! :)

Everyone be safe today!

-Terese

Week 6!

So my current weight as of today is 246 lbs! A total of 19 lbs!!

I apologize in advance if I am not as chipper as I usually am. Today Ryan and I saw a very bad accident involving a motorcycle in which the young man did not survive. His best friend was following him but thankfully did not see the accident. Unfortunately, he saw the aftermath. It makes you really appreciate life and all the blessings you have. I could never imagine pulling up to a car accident and seeing someone I love face down on the road and noticeably deceased.

I remember Ryan saying, "Oh my God. There is a man in the middle of the road!" Nurse's instinct kicked in and we both rushed to help him, but we were unable to. I refuse to describe the sight that was in front of us on this page. It was too horrific and I know most don't want to hear such details.

Do know that we are both fine. We are both able to sit down and talk in detail about what happened which is important. Sleep may be difficult tonight but we will both move on.

For the record, the boy was wearing a helmet so this does not give anyone the right to drive very fast because they are being safe. This is not the case. I have included the link to the news article below if anyone wants to read it.

There was something else I wanted to share with everyone that is on a happier note. My friend from high school sent me a very touching message on Facebook the other day. With her permission, I will now share it with you all.

"Hey Terese just wanted to let you know that I love your blog and how much it has touched me. My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant for the last 5 months. I just went to my obgyn and found out I have a polyp in my cervix and high testosterone which means Im not ovulating. So I'm having surgery and my Dr. Mentioned twice that losing weight can help. I joined weight watchers and after reading your blog I've decided to start blogging my journey! Thanks for the laughs and the honesty of your struggle! 😊"

This touched my heart because this what I hoped to accomplish. If I can inspire one person, who says I am not inspiring hundreds or even thousands!

In the midst of tragedy, there is still beauty in this world. I hope everyone stays safe on the roads and that you hug and kiss your loved ones at every moment. I love you guys!

-Terese

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Week 5!! The weeks are adding but the weight is subtracting!!

Yes ladies and gents!! Your eyes have not decieved you!! I am officially in the 240s!! WOOOOOOO!! That is a total of 17.2 lbs since I started my diet 5 weeks ago!

To be completely honest, it hardly feels like a diet anymore. I am so used to tracking what I eat and making sure I don't use up too many points each day. I have never had such an amazing experience! My face is thinner, my pants don't fit, and Ryan says he has noticed it most when he hugs me!

I am beyond excited about this accomplishment! If you believe it, it can happen! :)

-Terese

Week 4!!!! A whole month!

Well a whole month has past and I think this is possibly the longest I have stuck with a diet! And it feels amazing, if I might add! I am proud to report that I have reached my 5% weight goal and I now weigh 251.5 lbs! YAY!!

My next goal is the 10% mark and that is 238 lbs. I have decided that my own personal goal is to make it there in less than a month which shall be very challenging but absolutely doable!

I am thinking about taking a break on Saturday since I just found out what we are having for our family Father's Day dinner and this fat girl is way too excited!

I do, however, plan on living on that elliptical since my long haul of over time at work is almost over.
I must say that although I am tired all the time now, I am still hungry. I thought I would be too tired to eat but that is completely inaccurate!

So in conclusion, the fat is melting away and my pants are way too big (very exciting)! I can get used to this! :)

-Terese

Week Three!!

Well I must say that things are getting easier! I can even squeeze in a cupcake or some chocolate some days! It is awesome! And you know what else is awesome? Weighing 254 lbs!! That's right! That is a total of 11 lbs in 3 weeks!

I am hoping that once I start actively exercising, I will see more weight reduction. Ryan finally put together the elliptical since I am working 60 hours this week and next and will not have time to do so myself. (By the way, I love you and thank you for spending over 2 hours building it for me!)

The doctor told me that losing just 10% of my body weight will cause my body to jump start into a normal rhythm again! So although Weight Watchers gives me 5 lb, small goals, my ultimate goal 238 lbs. I am beyond excited to see how things pan out in the next few months!

Thank you all for the encouraging words and for being there during this life changing experience. It really means a lot that I have people backing me up! Love you guys!

-Terese

Week two... Something something... Complete...

Well it looks like I survived yet another week! I am officially 256.2 lbs! That is a total of 8.8 lbs closer to getting into baby making mode! Yay me!

I thought I would update everyone on what has been happening this week, so sit tight for a second. I stopped doing the squat challenge when my knee started giving me problems. All those years of catching for softball gave me 40 year old knees! Anyway I decided to get a treadmill that works so I could start really exercising. Hoping to get Ryan on board, we got an elliptical instead because he doesn't like treadmills. Heck! Working out is working out!

I have also realized this week that I favor bananas over other fruits. Being a dialysis nurse, I am sure my patients don't like it when I eat bananas in front of them (they are loaded with potassium!). Anyway, I eat fruits when I am hungry and it isn't time to eat because fruits are zero points. I also drink about 60 ounces of water at work a night so that fills me up too.

When people used to tell me it takes 2 weeks to break a habit, I thought that was silly. But now I find myself reaching for fruits and not chips and grabbing a water and not a coke. It can be done my friends! I am living proof!

-Terese

PS... I have saggy pant syndrome now, but I sure hope I'm losing belly and not booty!

Significant others...

I want to take the time to talk about a subject that a very dear friend of mine mentioned the other day. She stated that sometimes we become complacent when we are seriously dating or married because we realize that person loves us no matter what. Why lose weight when that person is already in love with the real you? She is right. I know that I don't wear make up everyday nor do I put on a push-up bra to impress Ryan anymore. He is lucky if I do put on a bra at all some days.

Anyway, this became all too clear to me the other day when I asked him if I looked skinnier. What was his response? "Baby, you always look good." Although I cannot say that he didn't answer correctly, I can say that it did not make me feel any better. My man means well, but sometimes I would like brutal honesty.

I say this now, but I remember when I was younger and asking my mom what she thought of certain outfits. Talk about brutal honesty! I would get so mad when she would say that something made me look fat! But I did ask for it.

I guess what I am trying to say is that losing weight isn't always pretty. Ever had your significant other catch you sitting in the kitchen crying hysterically next to an empty gallon of ice cream and a half eaten roll of cookie dough? Mine hasn't yet, but he has seen me freak out because I am so hungry sometimes. Although Ryan doesn't tell me honestly if I am losing weight, he sure does know how to make me feel beautiful on my bad days. Moments like that make this transition to being healthier a lot easier and I love him for that!

-Terese

I OWNED week one!!

Well friends, week one is over and it is time to weigh in!! Drum roll, please....

My current weight is 258.8 lbs!!!

That is a total loss of 6.2 lbs in a week!!!

That's pretty surprising considering the past weekend was a mess! No one wants to cook in the weekends so there was a lot of going out to eat! But I did stick to my guns and counted my points and made sure I stayed within the limits. That is actually harder than I thought. I think there should be a Weight Watchers points logo next to every menu item at every restaurant. It may sound ridiculous, but it sure would make my life a lot easier.

On a more personal note, Nea has finished first grade and lost her first tooth! Our little munchkin is getting so big! So to celebrate, we are going out to eat tonight. Dear Lord, please give me the strength to not eat everything on my plate because this woman is very hungry! Amen.

-Terese

Bargaining...

So I realized something the yesterday and this is how it came about....

I work nights so my sleep schedule is completely off! So instead of starting my Weight Watchers day after I wake up, I start and finish at midnight. So yesterday I woke up at 5:30 pm and Ryan and I went shopping for things to paint and decorate Nea's new room (she is moving into the bigger bedroom!). He had just eaten since he didn't get a lunch at work and I was STARVING! But I put it aside and we went see Iron Man 3 and decided to get dinner afterwards.

My stomach was growling so loud it kept interrupting the movie, but still I kept my composure and refused to eat. After the movie we went to Texas Roadhouse because I figured a grilled steak would be better than something fried. Well when the hostess was packing up our to go order, she asked if we wanted rolls to take home. Stupid question. OF COURSE WE WANT ROLLS!!!! And we got 2 orders to say the least.

When we got home, I was a good girl and ate my steak first with my corn and macaroni and cheese. I still had 3 points left! GO ME! But I really wanted those damn rolls and, go figure, they are 5 points each! What is a girl to do? I ate one roll and use my weekly points to cover that. But the fat girl inside wanted MORE! So I bargained. I told myself, "It is 11:30 pm. I will wait 30 minutes and eat another one and that way I won't use up more points for the day!" So I did. I ate that roll and it felt so good. Too good, in fact.

After sleeping 8 hours that day and having been suffering with a cold, I fell asleep at 12:30. Probably shouldn't have binged at dinner because it was an "I am full therefore I am tired" feeling. So this morning I woke up and I am not hungry. I drank a glass of water and decided to eat when I get hungry. But I am worried that if I wait too long, I will want a big meal later like last night.

Therefore, I have realized TWO things: I need to eat something light when I wake up or start feeling hungry, and I need to stop bargaining when I will eat dinner rolls. I mean really, after a six ounce steak and sides and a dinner roll, did I really need another roll? Probably not! And I didn't wait to fall asleep so that's another strike against me!

I knew this would be hard, but I didn't know dinner rolls would be the devil.

-Terese

And so it begins.....

Hello world! My name is Terese. I am 25 years old, a Pisces/Aquarius cusp, 5'7", brown hair, green eyes, blah blah blah.... To spare you the details you already know, or don't care to, I am going to cut to the chase... I am fat. There. I said it.

Why did I say that? Well I have an answer. Let us start from the beginning........

Growing up I was always on the chunkier side. Kids made fun of me, I always wore a shirt over my bathing suit, and I wouldn't eat much when I was around other people because I thought they would think that was why I am fat. The crazy thing is that I was very active. I played softball, basketball, soccer, volleyball, and I ran track ever since the age of five. The downer is that I NEVER ate healthy. My mother is the first one to say, "I gave her vegetables. She told me she didn't want them. So I never gave them to her again." Whether this is true or not, it wasn't entirely her fault. I am as stubborn as a mule.

Eventually I got to middle school and I grew boobs, started wearing makeup, and began discovering that I had a damn good personality along with a brain! So I fit in pretty well to say the least. High school was no different (although I am sure a lot of people were nice to me because I looked like a linebacker). Anyway, I graduated and went off to college. (Well, I didn't go very far, but it was still college!) And this is where the fun begins...

Being a pre-nursing student at the time, I diagnosed myself with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome). Instead of grossing out those who are not familiar with PCOS, I will let the brave venture off to Google this disease. Anyway, what do you do when you self-diagnose? You self-medicate! And the solution just happened to be birth control. So off to the doctor I went.

After years of switching between different birth controls because I would get "moody" and some say "psychotic", I decided to free myself from a $50 a month burden. Well, after not having a menstrual cycle for 6 months, I decided maybe I should be properly examined and professionally diagnosed. So the day finally came and the diagnosis I received was called FAT. Well, not really, but the doctor did say that my weight is probably the reason why I do not menstruate. She said, "The good news is that it is not PCOS and losing weight is easy to do." Well here I am: two years later and not a single pound lighter.

I must admit that I never actively tried to lose the weight, but the past eight months have put things into perspective. It all began when I moved in with my boyfriend, Ryan, and his beautiful daughter, Nea. There have definitely been talks of marriage in the future, and we all know what usually comes after marriage!!! BABIES!! Anyone who knows me will tell you that I am BABY CRAZY! Anyway, as exciting as planning for the future is, one thing bugged me. What if I am infertile?!?! So, yet again, I went to the doctor. This man is definitely pro-baby and said he will do anything he can to get me on the right track. He prescribed me progesterone pills that I need to take ten days out of the month to jump start my cycle. He also gave me samples of prenatal vitamins and told me to take ovulation tests everyday to see if I am ovulating. Let me just give you a second to paint a mental picture of Ryan's face when he came home that day and saw my "supplies" on the table! To make a long story not any longer than what it already is, I DO NOT OVULATE! So now it is time to start what I should have started a long time ago! I am going on a diet, people!

To be honest, a part of me wanted to write this blog so that I could embarrass myself into losing the weight. I figured I would put my weight out there and then freak out because I do not want people to know I weigh that much and, in turn, I would force myself to lose the wight. But as I thought about it (I mean seriously thought about it), I realized I am probably not the only one going through this. I figure I can vent all my thoughts and feelings throughout this struggle and maybe I can let someone else know that this is HARD and they are not alone
!

So, without further ado, I have started Weight Watchers (mainly because work reimburses me) and I have also started the 30 Day Squat Challenge!! I plan on posting weekly with weight updates but I am sure I will be here more frequently complaining about how I want to bob for peanut butter cups in a vat of hot fudge! So sit tight and enjoy the show!!

Oh, I forgot to mention (actually I have been postponing it), my starting weight is 265 lbs. Now I am off to do 50 squats!

-Terese